I find it funny that Daddy is mentions often that he always seems to be waiting for me. He is always talking about how I'm out and he sits at home and waits to talk to me, and when we fight he really  makes it a point that I am with people and can't talk to Daddy, and out doing things and not thinking about him.

But there is plenty of times I sit around and wait for him too. Like right now, I am not doing anything the rest of the night and could sit here and talk to him, but he is home with his exception and therefore can't talk to me right now. And it is like this a lot. Then when he is with his family or with a certain one of his guy friends it's hard to talk to me cuz they are nosy. So why is it that he only sees all the times he has to wait for me and never the times that I have to wait for him. I"ll be here for at least two more hours before he can text me again. But that doesn't count, it only seems to count if he is waiting lol. I don't get it.

Maybe i'm not suppose to. Anyway. I went back to work today cuz i'm feeling better everything was a mess. I spent 40 minutes putting everything back, I was so glad to be back working though. I love my job. So, i am hoping to keep off a little bit of the wieght I lost while being sick. I need to get back into my routine and tone up.

Daddy and I got to have lunch today.IT was a little off, things are a little off between us right now but not emotionally really, more physically. I think we are having to get use to it again cuz I haven't been able to touch him an anyway for over a week, which has never happened before. So we are gonna have to work to bridge that little rift. I keep waiting for him to go back into one of our roles, either more Dom or being more Daddy to let me feel safe being little girl. Now it just sort of feels like we are use to each otehr and we are just stuck.